wen it all comes to a head, do not to turn.our way with a belated apology.take.your demise.and.deal.with it!

i am a proud member of the FIRST NATION. i admire the life we lived before settlers came along. i love the physical and mental traits that come with being "Native American". i am fasinated wen i am told of how we we're politicians before white america introduced their version of it. but the frst years ive experienced how our tribe handles things have ripped something I've come to understand as our family tradition to rescue our sinking struggling tribe and then getting NO appreciation for it. now we have tribe hoppers coming outta the woods to enroll to get a check for free. amd more disturbing we have babies havin babies to have an income for the years to come. the parents of party kids and street kids cry injustice for the BOD not coming up with a miracle cure for drug addiction. oversized families struggling with keepin food on the table because they would rather have quick cash instead of settling for wat they had. screams of unaccounted for cash is completely invalid,people wish the tribe be treated bg family not a corporation? well think of our money flow as a household budget! we have employees to pay,multiple bills including payback for the loans that provided us with a revenue,+interest! then you have multiple little bills and lawsuits were others are trying to get a slice of money pie as well. wat is left is wat we have to pay out per capitas. i pray anybody who has leeway with these minions of power smashes it into these peoples heads that when ypu ask for an up in one payment that crosses a certain amount line,you lose benefits LEGITIMATELY.especially wen you have over 5 children plus usually grandbabies who they are collecting for! sure bills get big and food is unbelievable,but my mother had no quarterly check. she raised 4 kids not including "adopted" children with little to NO help from the tribe,state,BEFORE PER CAPS! she found ways to make ends meet wen they shouldnt have. sure my grandparents had a part but thats all. finacially and mentally my mother is a WARRIOR and it sickens me that she and my grandfather are so unappreciated and the most mud slung is in their way! did it not make it clear that wen they both came along and joined the tribal employment list that profits boomed!! my grandpa made our current revenues possible! and my mom,she became part of formerly known as TANF now 477 and had the biggest stats of people who only spent weeks or months on the wat i call "rez welfare" shortly got jobs and stopped all benefits because the classes and seminars my mother put them thru had an actual impact on them in a way never acheived before. there was so little people by a year and a half or more she SAVED the tribe enough money to build a whole new grant we couldve used in education or police forces or that half way home and rehab center we desperatly need. but the moment our "people" caught wind we had money with no cause yet they demand bigger checks! it has become so bad i sont think there will be a tribe for my children to register and represent wen they come to this world. my fight in my soul knows this battle is lost against stupidity in numbers and its a death wish to jump in now,because the stress from just the beginninig that took a huge toll on my family is deadly they are having the life sucked out by this place i call home. the people i call extended family are now only sheeple i cannot look at without wanting to grab them,and shove the truth they ignore down their huge ill-opionated mouths! politics is a burden my family bears because we are the only ones who posses the skills to understand them and the ability to pull a company/tirbe outta the fire..and if the people refuse the proper help they require then let them burn in their beds!